April 5, 2016

First Impression: John Frieda Forever Smooth Collection

I received my first Influenster Vox Box the other day. Also my first time using John Frieda products. They sent me their Smooth Forever - Frizz Ease Collection, which I can't deny, it's a perfect match for my current hair situation.

April 2, 2016

Facing Your Fears / Enfrentar Tus Miedos

If you had asked me a year ago what I would see myself doing in the nearby future, I would have never said "attending a modelling casting", that's for sure. But over the last months, I have been making changes. Not only on the outside (lighter hair, perfecting my makeup routine and outfits) but also on the inside: mentally progressing towards a more positive state of mind. I finally decided to stop being so hard on myself. And honestly, I feel silly for not doing it before. But I guess I had to go through all the difficult and uncomfortable moments I went through to progress and become who I am today.

I had to know what hitting rock bottom and not liking one single part of myself felt like. I had to look for excuses for everything, especially for why I wasn't capable of doing this or that. I had to look for excuses for not being happy.

Now, I still have a long way to go, but I am really proud of how far I have come. And feeling even more motivated to keep going after I realized that facing my fears and stepping out of my comfort zone is the only way to evolve as a person.

I realized that being afraid for all those years wasn't worth it. Those are years that haven't really helped me progress much, and all because I was afraid to do things I wanted to do. Just for the sake of doing them.

Just like yesterday, I went to this modelling casting for a known clothing brand. I know I won't be disappointed with myself or feel sad if I never here from them again, cause I did it for the sake of doing it. Just to face my fear of being exposed. Of being judged and observed in detail.

And nothing went wrong. In fact I felt so accomplished afterwards that I was shocked. I had been fantasizing of doing something like that for years, years that I spent watching America's Next Top Model and wondering what it would be like to be a part of a similar experience. To expose yourself like that but at the same time be a part of something bigger.

I'm not wanting to be a model. Just wanted to try something I found interesting and that was completely out of my comfort zone. And I did. And nothing went wrong.

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